The Start of my Christmas Journal

start of the front cover - I'm hoping to journal everyday - I won't be following Shimelle on UKS but will be doing my own thing.

I made this 6 x 6 album buying the posts & 6 x 6 page protectors from the auction site and making the front covers with chipboard and covered with patterned paper - simples

The finished front cover

16 page protectors to fill - double sided so that's 32 days - IF I get that far.

24th Back on Slimming World properly - I hope

would love to be back down to 11 stones for Christmas Day., I hope I can do it - even IF i only lose a few pounds it would be better than feeling how 'full and bloated' I am feeling at this moment in time.

Plus we have a meal to go to on Boxing Day and our Nigels Christmas/New Year party on Friday 30th December - so looking forward to that - will buy something nice to wear IF I've lost the weight.

Interview

seemed to go well, but they are interviewing quite a number of people so who knows if I shall get a job - it's my luck that I won't - don't like being negative but I feel so stuck in MR and all the problems that occur in there - they are so awful at times - just the messing about all the time and the breaks they have and breakfasts and music blarring at times - whilst I work work work. I try so hard to ignore it but it's so difficult.

I pray I get this job - in Lichfield - won't know until Monday though - keep trying to be positive.

Girl at work at to have her horse put to sleep

this week - it has me thinking of how much I so love my dog and cats - they are all getting old and I know that GUNNER is slowing month by month. I wish with all my heart that he was young again, we'd just had him, I was working from home again and could take him 'walkies' whenever I wanted to, like I used to be able to, before working outside the home 28 hours a week - and feeling so knackered when I get home that it's a quick drag around the block for him - poor soul. I wish I could have my happy old life back again - but we can't, we have to work like everyone else to pay the bills and so my dog doesn't get the exercise or attention he once had.

BUT he has a roof over his head - a loving home and food in his belly - and lots of cuddles and is loved by us all.

I hope he's with us a couple more years yet - but I doubt it - I pray he's ok.

Korin passed her driving test !

Yippeeeeeeeeee - so pleased for her, she so needed it. A BIT MORE GOOD LUCK FOR US> Just hope she stays safe and drives carefully.

Worry to death every time she goes out alone.

Have been really rough -

with my back .............. feeling really down too, because of work, reckon it'll be me that is made redundant next february - everyone else has been in NHS for a lot longer than me ! OK I know i've moaned on at how boring the job is - it IS exceptionally boring, but I so enjoyed clinic prep and that has all been taken from me. Now I have a bad back to contend with, stretching and bending and carrying loads of files etc - I really don't know how I shall do it.

Tired and worn out and fed up - hope this interview goes well and I get the job. Massive good luck vibes to myself and fingers crossed a million times too. IF only boss lady had told M that is wasn't fair to shove me back in MR - but that would never happen for me.

Back at work tomorrow - and back is much improved (thankfully) - but dreading going in. I never take time off work but even when sick you feel guilty about not being there.

What a difference a week makes.

It has been awful at work - M decided that she was going back into her office and so I had to return to MR - I know that M did this out of spite because I had the nerve to complain to the boss that she was bossing me around - well Iwasn't going to stand for it ! BUT then she decides also to say that I had been 'talking' behind her back, this is untrue - and the whole week just went from bad to worse. To make matters worse last night my bottom back/right leg was in spasm (I think because of all the stress) and got up this morning, didn't sleep well and pain pain pain. Took painkillers but decided to stay at home................I really couldn't have made it in today and done stretching and bending and the like at work. So ............... I felt terrible not going in because it now looks like I didn't go in because of the troubles at work. But hey ho - yet another bloody week in the birch household.

Having said all this - our redundancies at work have been put off - really - until next february - so that was a bit of a bonus - PLUS K has had mega troubles at work, but that has eased a bit towards the end of the week - and good news is that we found out that K's pension is worth a lot lot more than we could have imagined - and we shall draw some money down to put in the bank for a rainy day - or the day we really need it. It will mean that we can have a bit of a better christmas and have my garden done at the front to make it look nicer for christmas and have a new TV for Christmas as our pressie. GIVING the kids a thousand pounds each too.

AND I got an interview for 21st of the month - it seems like a really interesting job - hope so anyway, and hope I get it to get away from this place and the threat of redundancy. It is full time though, but I would give my reflexology up and just do that and have each evening to myself, that would be kinda nice after 14 years of doing evenings.

This week has been quite eventful - stressful - exhausting - sad - upsetting - anxious - but has turned out quite OK. Fingers crossed that things continue on OK as we never seem to make those two steps forward and stay FORWARD......................