I hate marian...............with a vengeance

so why do i still want to ring her and find out that she is having a bad time ....... hoping  she is having a bad time, I shouldn't wish this on people.  I know that, but she wronged me big time and I really want to tell her how much of a shit she is ................. but I still miss having someone to moan to, someone to let rip with, Nah, i don't miss her at all, she was vile, criticised everything i put on facebook, laughed at me, was real negative.  I hate Marian, BIG TIME.