Saturday, 29 September 2012
since my last weigh in 5 weeks ago - BUT 5 weeks ago I had gained 2lb's so all in all 5.5lb's on in around 7 weeks. Supposed to be a weight loss regime. Whoops. Anyway, feel a bit better for going and facing the music. WILL have a good week and I could - that is COULD lose that 5.5lb's in just one week - I have done it before. We shall see.
DREAD to think what I have gained...............but having a shower, getting dressed and DRAGGING myself there kicking and screaming............wish I was still going with sons GF but she has given up, hope she gets inspired to tag along next week again. Fingers crossed.
Friday, 28 September 2012
Just messing about with paper. Been printing off some images onto transparencies and backing it with mod podge and then loadsaglitter - Gillybling is back eh. I've also made some paper flowers from magazines - haven't come out as well as I wanted them to so they need some practice. Have been thinking about more Layouts - YES I really think my LO mojo has returned - nothing too elaborate for me though these days - just very basic stuff is all I want so pointless trying to do Layouts like other people - just doing what I like doing and feeling happier about it. Have been looking through old photo's too - feeling sad how quickly the years just fly by - this one of my DD is about 3 years old - even though she has her heavy specs on - (she now wears contacts nearly all the time) - I love this photo - it is so natural. Well - I decoupaged it and love the result.
Wednesday, 26 September 2012
my weight - doing my head in. I start back on SW do a good day and ruin it on the night. Or have a bad day and a good evening. Consequently I am up and down the same 3lb's every week. Doing my head in now. I really want to be back at 12 stone for Saturday when I rejoin SW - so that means losing 2lb's in 3 days - I know I can do it. AND I WILL. Will report back later. tee hee.
Sunday, 23 September 2012
I haven't done anything differently - just painful and tight and unable to walk up and down stairs one foot in front of the other - one foot at a time takes so long to get around the house - I have only 2 & half weeks left to get back to work - I am so worried I won't be able to go back.
Saturday, 22 September 2012
with thinking about helping myself to getting 'out of' the daily grudge. AND my DD & her BF are back together after just a 2.5 day split. I am happy that she is happy, but I hope he has grown a pair and proves that he loves her still and treats her to days out, taking her out and being there for her.
Friday, 21 September 2012
Wednesday, 19 September 2012
listening to your daughter crying and sobbing and sobbing and crying has very nearly broken my heart. I wish I could take away her pain. I went for my occy health appointment - doctor agrees with my GP for another 4 weeks off - but I don't think my leg will be better by then ????? Plus I really don't want to go back at all. Being off has reminded me how it was when I just used to work from home pre-recession...............it's been absolutely great - EXCEPT I have a bad leg. DREADING going back to work, but I know I have to. Love you Kozzie............I hope your heart is mended very soon.
Tuesday, 18 September 2012
Monday, 17 September 2012
An album I have made to store ???? Project Life stuff - stuff about me & my family - little snippets of things we get up to (maybe) our work, our play etc. Don't suppose for one minute it will get finished ? BUT it's just for randomness stuff - nothing in particular. Doesn't matter if it takes 5 years to finish or just a month. the inner pages are the Project Life page protectors/segments from We are Memory Keepers, I bought them such a long time ago was going to sell them. Now Ihope to use them up.
Sunday, 16 September 2012
leg bad again when I woke up - really worried about work etc. another 4 weeks off - I really don't think I will cope with another 4 weeks off - feeling low and fed up - trouble is when you do have something wrong with you - you can't go out doing loadsofstuff................ah well...............keep on keeping on and hope that I am better soon.
Saturday, 15 September 2012
weighed myself to find that i had infact lost 2lb's - and had a lovely afternoon out with my darling daughter - we went for a meal and chatted and although she is sad and upset with her BF (who may not be her BF - he needs space !!!!!!) it cheered us both up to spend some time together.
Have overeaten and don't feel like going to SW - can't weigh myself as I know I have gained..............it took me 7 weeks to lose 10lb's - reckon I've probably gained 3. Returning to SW next Saturday - will have a really good week back on plan. I hope. Leg - well it's still a problem. STILL do not know what is wrong with it - still no specialist appointment as Physio feels it's getting better. Went to doctors yesterday to be told have another month off ! I am hoping that it's enough. I enjoy being at home but when you have a bad leg you are limited to as to what you can do at home - have mixed feelings about going back - HAVE TO go back as I cannot afford to give up my job - very worried that my leg isn';t going to get any better than it is now - AND I won't be able to do my job. Worried that they'll not find me anything else and I'll lose my job entirely - would I ever get another job? I don't even know if I'm being paid for this time off - so worried about that too. Probably need to ring HR, but everything is feeling 'to difficult' to be bothered. DD's relationship seems to be on the rocks - he's too 'cowardly' to admit that he wants to split and keeps her hanging on - the shit (although I really liked this lad) is now saying he wants a break/space - for Gods sake - just put her out her misery - tell her what she already fears but is hanging on hoping that you really still want her. 'I love you Kozzy'. He has said 'you love me more than I love you' Shop isn't doing well. Hubbies job isn't doing too marvellously - but then none are any of the other salesmen. Life is seeming so hard. To cap it all - I got up today with the bad feelings I had the day I left my old house (I didn't want to leave that beautiful house) - recession forced us to sell-up. I am kinda happy here - but that overwhelming upset feeling I had the day I left my last house has been with me since I opened my eyes - even the smell in the air when I opened the doors this morning to let the cats out - our old house - the garden - the smell, the feeling all came flooding back. Yes I am on a real downer. Have said to DD we need to go out today and take the dog to the park, although I can't walk much at least he could have a bit of a run - then we could stop off maybe at morrisons for some lunch - do a bit of shopping like we used to before she got with her chap. I need to do something because I feel REAL DOWN. So unlike me - I usually can pick myself up, dust myself off and start all over again.
Tuesday, 11 September 2012
Sunday, 9 September 2012
Friday, 7 September 2012
AND bought a car all in one day - then had to get money from the bank and sort his insurance - what a nightmare - BUT he'll be all sorted once we collect it tomorrow. I hope he enjoys his car, but above all I hope he's safe.
Wednesday, 5 September 2012
I bought this
Monday, 3 September 2012
Sunday, 2 September 2012
She is very close to losing her BF - he is probably breaking up with her tonight, she doesn't want him to, but the last few weeks he's been distant and been away on a lads week away, hasn't been buying her little pressies like he used to, hasn't been staying over as often as he did - going out with mates more and more - telling her he was at work and that he didn't text her to tell her he wasn't at work because he throught she would be asleep. Lies and deceit - I hate that. I think he still loves her, but doesn't love her as much as she loves him. Tomorrow she will know, he said he needed tonight to do a lot of thinking, it doesn't sound good. I feel very sorry for her because she loves him to bits. AMENDED 4.9.12 - he's just being a shit and messing her about - I am so annoyed with him and she's allowing him to do what he likes with his mates and not treating her like he used to................I hope he changes, I don't normally get involved but I will this time because she don't deserve no shit.
& been through all my 12x12 albums ! thrown away some LO's - which to be fair i didn't particularly like when I finished them ............... some you never really like, and some I really probably hated but put in the album anyway. I do have a clearout every so often and have probably thrown away about 20 LO's over the years. There are a few more that I came very close to throwing out tonight but have kept and maybe will throw them away at my next clearout. We'll see. So now I feel cleansed..........and in need of doing a couple more LO's to start to refil my albums.